waking up...

i realize the light in my room is fabo.

Sweater: ex boyfriend's

skirt: California Select Vintage

a while back..

djuna double booked a job so i had to do style one job while she did the other.

the one i did was a job for GUESS to see if we could ever style for them and such.
i was beyond excited because i was given this huge responisbility. Even though Djuna put the outfits for this shoot together before she left i still had to improvise and change it up.
i fully styled these:

Entire outfit GUESS

model: Lauren Voth

photog: Geoff Moore

Stylist ;D: Elizabeth Rennie

I also adore this picture from the shoot. i did however make the vest she wears ;D djuna styled it though.

                                      

healing

Shoes: Ms Sixty

Socks: AA

Pants: Lauren Conrad

Shirt: some boutique

ART WALK..i love this art..you get to pee like a man

JOSHSTRONG

OCTOPUS..we go about 3 times a week.

VEGAS to LA..before valentines

(tries to be like me)

the healing process continues.

accept the man and i are kind of back on, taking it slow..he has to work for it.

valentines shmalentines

Josh's memorial service was wonderful. it gave me closure that i was sure i would never achieve. even though i am pretty sure he is going to pop out randomly and say "YOU ARE ALL BURNT". they made tshirts for it..i'm wearing mine constantly and i know he will be watching and adoring it. miss you brother

VALENTINES...i dont like you right now.

yeah so my boyfriend...not what i expected. completely ignored me all day, to be with his best GIRL friend??

i'm sure we are over.

it sucks when you think someone is so perfect for you and he is totally devoted to you and tells you how different he is..THEN HE IS NOT.

all of the men are the same.

or, i just have extremely bad judgment.

this sucks, these passed 2 weeks have been hell and he doesnt even help me through it. i need to find a MAN. not a boy like he was...this sucks so bad.

yeah so these 2 weeks..i've been sad. crying randomly and crap just thinking of memories and my last conversation with josh and how i will never ever forget it.

tyler came out to see me though, and he got stuck here and is ending up staying with me for a week..which is nice because i hate being sad and alone.

and heres a picture i took at 7 in the morning before a photoshoot haha...

Jacket:moschino TARGET

Shirt: American Apparel

Belt: Vintage.

these past 2 weeks have been the best and the worse of my life.

the most stressed out weeks of my life and the most relaxing.

peppers gone..

now josh is gone. i love you joshua smallwood. you were a great stepbrother and i will always cherish the memories i had with you. i'm beyond happy to be graced with your presence one last time.

i hate losing people especially great people who will approach miraculous things in their life time if given the chance. you fought josh with all your might and soul..you will always be a hero in my eyes and i will never fully let you go.

i dont know how i deal with all of this. i guess its true, when you are doing good at work your personal life will go up in flames.

He really is a masterpiece..

NICOLA FORMICHETTI THAT IS!

i can't believe i've had the honor to work with him.

and there is the jumpsuit i pulled!!! WOOOO. lol i feel so accomplished...even though i'm still an intern ;D

him, lady gaga, and armani got together to customize all of her costumes for the grammys (i had the great liberty of picking up these costumes and bringing them to the grammys) fun fun fun.